Finally EX BF # 2 and I had sex. Its been a long time since we “went all the way”.
The reason it didn’t happen sooner was because I wasn’t ready to go there.
You know what? I am not ready to go back there.
I am not sure if there is something wrong with me physically or its all in my head but I can’t get too turned by him.
Is it because I do not trust him or because I have taken a increase on my depression medication?
The foreplay was great the actual act was…. quick on his part. I think he was really embarrassed about it.
Then I do not hear one word for a week until I text him and said “call me”.
He calls and he sounds madder then hell. He explained he had a shit week and was not in the mood to be social.
Ok, so I hang up.
An hour later he calls me and apologizes for blowing up over the phone and goes on to explain what happened during the week.
I have an appointment to discuss my medication however I feel that sex, relationships, booty calls can take a back seat right now.
